I'm a Loser

So... I need someone to vent to, and well, writing always helps so that is how I ended up here.

I have been writing this kid for his entire mission. He asked me to when he first left, and we were good enough friends that I, of course, said yes. That was my first mistake. Did I mention I've liked this kid nearly all of my life? What on earth did I get myself into?

Well, now he is home, and we haven't talked yet. Every single one of his letters told me how glad he was that I was writing him. He was so thankful for our friendship. What's a girl to think? *sigh* Of course I got sucked in, with his charm, his knowledge of the gospel, the fact that he has every quality I want in a husband, and I know him quite well. I told myself I wouldn't let this happen. Yet here I am, placed on his backburner, and forgotten about.

Of course, there is a Beatles song for everything... So here it is. "I'm a Loser"

I'm a loser
I'm a loser
And I'm not what I appear to be

Of all the love I have won or have lost
there is one love I should never have crossed
She [he] was a girl [boy] in a million, my friend
I should have known she [he] would win in the end

I'm a loser
And I lost someone who's near to me
I'm a loser
And I'm not what I appear to be

Although I laugh and I act like a clown
Beneath this mask I am wearing a frown
My tears are falling like rain from the sky
Is it for her [him] or myself that I cry

I'm a loser
And I lost someone who's near to me
I'm a loser
And I'm not what I appear to be

What have I done to deserve such a fate
I realize I have left it too late
And so it's true, pride comes before a fall
I'm telling you so that you won't lose all

I'm a loser
And I lost someone who's near to me
I'm a loser
And I'm not what I appear to be