Influence

October 10, 2010 is the date I started this blog. It is now February 3, 2011 and I was looking back at my Stats. I have had over 800 people look at my blog. I hope I have helped someone in some way. I have born my testimony several times, and have shared my struggles. I hope I have encouraged someone to be better.

So I went to the Psychologist Center today, and they put me on a waiting list of two weeks. The secretary said that they review the patients every Wednesday, and see if they need to move people up. I said that I was okay to be on the waiting list, but I am kinda hoping that it is earlier than two weeks.

I feel with my realization of the Atonement in my life, this time the therapy and help will "stick" and I will be able to have better self control and finally beat this.

I'm worried about the rest of my life. If this is going to be a life long battle, am I going to have to go to therapy for the rest of my life? How do people go to therapy and change? I thought I was doing really well, and changing, and here I am back at square one. I am no stranger to hard work, and I can do it, but when it comes to success, why do I quit? You'd think that if you see the results you want that you would be more motivated to continue on and keep being successful. Not me. For some reason, I don't do that. And I need to find out why.